... of reading about my favorite xanga moms waiting up for their kids, but it's expected to happen at some point, almost, right?

Well what are you to do when your freaking FIANCE isn't home yet, it's 5AM and he's not answering his phone or texts?  I'm trying to just be mad, but of course it's more that I'm concerned and worried. 

I think I just need to resign myself to the fact that he's not coming home tonight.  I have no idea how to decide how I feel about that - or more what I'm going to say about that.

This is ridiculous.

I am doing better now.  Last night John and I went over our checklist of wedding stuff - finally picked out ceremony music, which was actually a pretty fun time!

We are set up to meet with John's Pastor on Sept 5th to begin our premarital counseling.  I'm eager to get this completed.  After we are finished with that then we have to talk to my Uncle (Pastor performing the ceremony) about what we've learned.  I'm still thankful that my Uncle can marry us, it's very special!

On Saturday we are bringing all but one of the guys to get fitted for their tuxes.  And then we'll be picking out the bridesmaid dresses.  I know, I know, that should have been done forever ago - but I couldn't find anything that made sense for a November wedding.  Then my SIL bought a black dress because she thought she was supposed to just buy whatever black dress she liked so that turned into a little fiasco prompting the last entry.  I don't even want to get into the specifics because it really upset me over all.  I still think/hope that we're looking at having Lori make the dresses so it will be less expensive - but we'll see.  I have to call her today and hopefully get some things down.

And now I should finish getting ready for work.  But things are moving along again, and you really can't ask for much more than that I guess.

At least that's how every wedding thing that comes up right now makes me feel.

Apparently my SIL would like more communication regarding what wedding plans are happening - well none actually since I apparently can't make any decisions - and when I do, it's not good ones.

Apparently John and I have no say as to what goes on with our Bachelore/Bachelorette parties.

I'm so frustrated right now - I never thought I'd hit the point where I'd wish it was all just over.  But I have now hit that point and it sucks.  I always thought this was going to be fun.  I knew there would be rough patches but I never thought I'd get so irritated and sad over stupid shit.

Ugh. 

It's the best way I can think of what just happened.

I woke up to my alarm and reached to turn it off - however my left leg was positioned, when I stretched to grab my phone, I heard/felt two pops in my calve muscle.  It was immediately painful like it was going to go into a charlie horse, but then it didn't.  It still kinda hurts - nothing looks different and it was one of the stranger things my body has ever done on its own.

Any ideas? 

WEIRD.

In other (good) news - my mommy is coming down today!  Her and Janette are supposed to go shopping for their wedding outfits together - let's hope both of their jobs really allow for that to happen!  Both of them would like something a little more formal since the dads will be wearing tuxedos.  Should be interesting!

Time to get in the shower and get ready for work.  Hurrah!

So this afternoon I get to be fitted for a brand new CPAP Mask - hopefully they'll fit me correctly this time and I'll actually be able to sleep with it on - and not just spring a leak when I move in the night.  I know that it has to be impossible for me to just move like I do without a mask, but I should be able to turn to the side!  At least I hope so.

Tonight we start our "group" dance lessons.  We were going to take two a week - but I just remembered that next Thursday (which would be the 3rd week of fundamentals for Salsa) we have a previous engagement - so we're going to see if we can't work around that some how, but if not, then we can't take the Salsa lessons

Didn't go to our private lesson on Monday, I still wasn't feeling right with the spider bite & hives on my arms.  That night we got the spare room rearranged.  We're still not through all of our boxes, but we have things in a certain spot.  I think I've sorted through 3 boxes, and half-way through 3 more.  If I can get the boxes out of the living room tonight, I'll feel like we're in good shape to having my mom over on Friday night without making her uncomfortable in our general messiness - and then I'll hope that we can keep it up because I'd really like to be able to have people over at a moment's notice without a mad exhaustive rush to get it presentable.  Especially considering that we live so close to the inlaws.  They could come over any time!  lol  They don't, but they could.  I really do enjoy my in-laws though - and I'm thankful for that.

I'm trying to find out if there is a website where I could determine what other people make doing all the different accounting work I do.  I know I'm not making enough since I know two people in my same position here that make $1000 & $2500 more than I do/year. 

I could really use a raise.  They better be able to at least do the Cost of Living bump this year - and I better get that promotion soon!

We are placing an order at THE KNOT . com store today for our attendant gifts and reception napkins, cameras & bubbles.  WOO HOO.  My mom feels like spending $30 on the personalized folding cooler chairs for our groomsmen is a little expensive, but I really want to get people something they'll use - and I think pretty much anyone can find a reason for a cooler.  The girls are getting personlized gigantic tote bags. 

On Friday my mom and John's mom are going shopping to hopefully find their wedding attire - but mostly to spend some time together and get to know one another.  Should be interesting to meet up with them for dinner and see how it went! 

I best get to work.

So the spot on my chin doesn't seem HOT anymore, it's still warm but not like it was.  It's not as red.  However, I now have hives down my forearms.

Really? 

I guess let's hope this doesn't happen anywhere near the wedding!  lol

Ugh - off to work!

I still have more things to do to finish the invitations - however it turns out we didn't buy enough brads to finish the decoration on the front of the card.

MaryBeth - Do you think you'll have any time to work on necklaces?  Or would you rather devote the time you have to what's getting done at your house?  It's totally fine either way - I know you are super busy right now.

Random wedding generated thoughts come into my head very unexpectedly these hours.

I got all of the cutting & stamping done for the invites   And have at least 40 assembled.  They are so cute.  I love them.

Last night at the camper (my parents', we are staying and working there on our crafting) I was bit by a spider, suposedly.  I never remember the bite happening - but when I went to bed last night I had a harder bump in my chin that was about the size of a dime.  When I woke up, it was probably bigger than a LARGE new (red) potato.  The hardened section is so hot it's like it's on fire.  Went to the doc in case it was something that could effect my breathing & he told me just to take antihistamines.  Yay.

Heading for bed now - I am whiped.  (Whiped, which I actual spelled as "warped" before correcting that.

<3

Right now I am at my parents' house printing off the "insides" of my invitations.  Then I'll grab them all and head out to the camper with the girls (mom, sister and a girlfriend) to make the invites and drink wine and talk smart.  Should be a good time.  I hope it's a good time.

Had some wedding annoyances the last two days.  Apparently my sis-in-law thought everyone was going to buy their own black dress - and she's already purchased one.  It's not a huge deal - I think the only reason I don't like that idea is that I don't want cleavage showing - and I think it would be with one friend.  Hmmm. So we'll see if we can take a look at it this weekend.

Then today I went to the bakery to see if they would be able to use my G'ma's recipe for peanut butter cookies & apparently not so she said she would as the cookie man if he would be willing to tweak his recipe to more of what I wanted.  I told her it should be more chewey & more peanutbuttery.  lol  Hopefully it will work out but if not then I guess I have to find some where else to go and that would suck. 

Then Hobby Lobby called & said that they can't order just 15 of the small wooden crates, the crates are ordered in sets of three sizes - so if she orders "1" she receives a small, medium & large - though they are sold separately.  So now I'm not sure what the center pieces will be.

I'm a little irritated but I am trying to let the irritation go away - we'll see how that goes. lol

That's about all going on in my life right now.  I think the wedding stuff is going to get stressful now.  But hopefully it can be fun AND stressful.

Have a great weekend!

I have to get a new car - apparently mine is dying.  I might last another couple of years - if I put another grand plus into it.  I think I'll just find a different car, hopefully before this one goes.

was a blast!

Nothing like your school life-long crush (who's married) standing in your circle of conversation calling you a naughty girl in front of your fiance.  Can you say awkward?  Thankfully the beer just kept me laughing.  Blushing purple.  But laughing.  It was funny as hell - and he is going to be a daddy in 3 months so that was very cool to meet his wife as well!

Here's hoping tonight is also just FUN!