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  • uhhhhh

    John just had his doctor's appointment and they are having him come back tonight for an MRI to rule out this
     
     
    and I'm freaking out a little bit.  Not a lot bit, but a little
    bit.  I think that it's all okay no matter what and it will be good to
    know, but just wasn't expecting this kind of a thing.  Argh.  Tears go
    away!

    So I wrote that pretty much right when I found out at work this afternoon.  Since then, I've called my mom after work, and she (as always) was pretty good at talking me down.  And I've cuddled with John and cried in front of him.  lol

    We're off to the MRI shortly, and mostly we're both okay.  It's a little weird, but it will be good to have answers.

    OH, like my mom asked, why do they think this?

    So it's because John was talking to his doctor about anxiety, and how he stutters when he gets anxious and sometimes can't talk/talks really slow after he gets worked up.

    So they're doing the MRI and then next Wednesday we're going to see an Neurologist.  He said I can come with, I'm glad because I want to.

    *sigh*  It'll all be fine, no matter what they find out.  But it was just so out of no where in my mind that this would happen today.  Aaack.


    ** UPDATE **

    Heh, John has now discovered that he IS a bit clausterphobic, at least when it comes to an MRI.  The MRI will happen another day, don't know when yet.

    And I do agree, Kallioph (sp?) SHERYLM that it is good they are ruling out something less likely, instead of going with the easier diagnosis.  And I really do appreciate the comments.  It's not the worst thing that could happen in the world, though it threw my world for a little spin, and it's good to know I have you guys for those out of control thoughts.
    <3

     
  • So I almost got engaged yesterday...

    John & I were in the backseat of his parents' vehicle on the way back from visiting his Grandma in NE.  I wrote him a note and said

    I would really like to be engaged before we move in together 'officially'.

    *insert big eyes* Nervous - I don't have money

    Lets be realistic, if we wait for you to save up for the ring, we won't be getting engaged this year.

    Do you just want to be engaged or is it because you think our parents will be more supportive of us living together if we are?

    Because I really do want to be engaged.  I feel like we already are and I want it to be real.  I think feeling like we do probably makes it a lot more real than the ring but no one else can see how we feel.

    Let's just get married.  I know you want it to be a certain way and in Little Falls, but we need to just do it. Sometimes I feel like being engaged is more important to you then being married.  What matters to me is you being my wife, not when and how long we're engaged.

    *tears*
    Did you just propose to me?

    *nods yes*
    Yeah

    *smiles across the seats & holding hands*

    All of this was done via text message because this was a private convo & his parents were up front.  So we talked about it later.  I asked if he was ready to tell everyone and he said

    I think a lot of people are going to be happy for us and believe we're making the right choice like *names multiple friends* but there are some I'm not as sure about.

    Like our parents?

    Yeah, like our parents.

    *quiet moment*

    So, then what do you think?  Are we or aren't we?

    I say lets tell the people we know will be happy for us and wait on the ones we're not sure about

    *shakes head no*

    No?

    If we can't tell our parents, then we're not engaged yet.

    So that's basically how that ended.  But of course I told my mom anyway.  lol She giggled & said we were silly for questioning it.  And that she could plan the wedding for May.  lol  Then she giggled again.

    So no, we're not considering us engaged in the everyone knows way, but we feel like we are.  Tomorrow we're hoping to hop over the Shane Company and see about him purchasing and resizing my ring.  After that... well, it's just a waiting game to see when the question is actually FINALLY popped!

    Thought you'd all like to know...   Plus I needed to document it for myself!  lol 

  • Finally

    I have finished writing my class reunion letter.  Finally, I have completed the mail merge.  I wouldn't think this should be so difficult, but I was getting all kinds of irritation until I created another database (via copy & paste of course) that was "clean", I guess you could say. 

    Next week, I will be sending in to FedEx to be printed, getting envelopes from my dad on the weekend and lots of envelope stuffing & sealing to follow, mailing to go out on Tuesday, the 10th at the latest.  Excitement.

    I've been getting frustrated with my boss lately.  Don't fully know what to do about it, or what I'll even try to do about it.  But I'll survive, always do.

    That's about it for me.  <3

  • Inauguration Day

    Should be an interesting evening.  Might even lead to an interesting day - you never know.  

  • The Story of Step One

    It isn't really a long story, but I'm sure I can make it entry worthy! 

    I am allergic to pretty much every metal there is with the exception of Titanium & 24K Gold.  They won't make engagement rings out of 24K Gold as it's too soft.  And while it's nice to know I can have a titanium ring so that no matter what, I know I won't end up with a plastic wedding ring - I really wanted something shiny - I am a female ya know.

    So last Sunday I went to The Shane Company & purchased the cheapest Platinum band ($400) so I could try it out.  They sized it and John & I went to pick it up on Wednesday afternoon.  After I put it on, we met up with the guy that helped me on Wednesday and looked at some rubies.  Apparently the country (some where in Burhma?) that Tom Shane hand picks his Rubies from because they are the BEST that he has found, has recently been put on trade restrictions with the US due to possible sponsorship of terrorism & other things.  That said, he hasnt' found an adequate substitute yet, so rubies will be going up in price or the selection will greatly diminish.  (the salesperson said "unless Tom lowers his standards to the perfect ruby, which I'm doubting'  Guess we'll see.)

    The plan for the engagement ring is an emerald cut ruby.  We had thought about hurrying up and purchasing a ruby now so that we can have what I want - but the more I've thought about it over the weekend, the more I think not.  What good is a $1500-$2500 ruby going to do me in 3-4 years if I can't get one to match for placement in John's wedding band?  Yes, I would really like a real ruby, but I think the plan right now is to sit down with our guy at Shane company and discuss if:

    1) If they can sell us a fake ruby for now & mount the crown, setting the stone.
    2) If they will mount a stone on the band they sold me that we didn't purchase from them.
    3) If they will still provide the metal care guaranteed on my band if I end up buying a fake stone from some where else
    4) Maybe look at other stones and determine if something else catches my eye at this time.

    This needs to be accomplished in the next month - answering those questions.  I have 53 days to return the ring if they won't continue metal care if I have to purchase a stone some where else.

    That said, I really like The Shane Company.  I feel like they have a great reputation - their guarantee with free maintenance is wonderful.  If I do buy a ruby there, and keep up my maintenance (every 6 months & free) and some how the stone gets loose & I lose it, they will replace it, no cost.  Also, my over all vibe from them is that they truly have integrity and aren't just out there to take your money.  The jeweler we spoke with is a younger guy - and super informative.  It was just a really fun time (though it was also really scary cost wise.)

    And I'm happy to say that even though I haven't had this ring on for a whole week yet - I'm quite sure I'm not allergic to Platinum!    They figured I wouldn't be, but I'm definitely not willing to wait & find out until after I have a rock!

    *** Probably most importantly, Step One does not mean I am engaged.  Just making it a possibility in the near future. ***

    We should be engaged by the middle-last quarter of the year.  Honestly, at this point it's just a symbol for me.  I feel like I'm already engaged.  I've made up my mind that this is a life time commitment, everything else is just details now.  I've (we've) essentially been planning our wedding in bits in and pieces due to the various weddings we've attended this year and other randomness that just pops into our conversations.  It's fun stuff.

    Next up on the agenda is setting up a time to meet with my family friend Shirley & see about renting her basement with John next year.  Not sure if it's going to be big enough.  That's kind of disappointing because it would financially be amazing for us & actually let us get ahead.  At the same time, I do miss having room to have people over.  I wonder though, if I wanted to have a dinner party with ya know, maybe four people over, if she would let us use the dining room?  We have to share a kitchen anyway...  PLUS my mom could stay in her "Auntie Shirley's" guest room when she wants to visit me.  This would also be good because she rarely sees her as it is.

    Work has been busy.  I must have put in like 60 hours last week alone, but all the year end reports are finished.  I just have to clean up the mess now.  Maybe I'll do that later today.  Maybe I'll stay away the whole weekend.  We'll see.

    Hope you're all doing well.  And for those that are having health issues - you're in my thoughts & prayers for a healthy recovery.

  • Look what I got!

    Step 1 Ring

    We'll call this "Step One"

  • I'm copying GG

    Okay not really, I don't have a picture of the finished product yet.  But I'm making that spectacular looking white shiny layer cake from the Bon Apettit magazine.

    So, GG, is the dark chocolate ganache supposed to taste DIGUSTING by itself?  Please tell me it actually tastes good when eaten with the cake...

    If you're my friend on facebook, you can see the progressive pictures.  It won't be finished until tomorrow though, at John's parents where his mom & I will put it together and make the peppermint frosting.

    I certainly think this takes far too much time to ever want to make it again.

  • What do you plan to name your firstborn child? Why?

    Our Firstborn son will be named "Joseph Gottlieb"

    Yes, I know.  Yes, Gottlieb.    His classmates don't have to know   And it would be honoring one of my dad's grandparents & John's starting of a tradition of the same initials for two generations (JGY.)

    Our Firstborn daughter will be named "Holdina Ruby"

    She will go by Dina (Dee-nah) for short.  Holdina is for my Great Grandma who passed away two years ago 12/1, and Ruby for his grandma who is 88, I believe, and still kickin.

    For a boy I've also like the name "Bradley Taylor".  No other girl name thought of at this time.

       

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  • Nothing like Late Night Baking

    Have my cookie exchange tomorrow (today) and didn't start making my new cookie recipe until 10pm.  (I didn't get home from work until 8pm - worked a little late, but more because of snow & traffic.)  So I have it mixed up and read the REST of the recipe to see that it's supposed to chill for two hours to firm.  So I contemplate this and after small discussion with a friend, decide we're good to start baking and forget the chill time.  Slightly stickier hand situation, but they turned out good.  Very rich brownie-like cookies.  Extremely moist too.  Yum.  Need lots of milk to drink with them though!

    I was baking until a little after 1am.  That's when John got home from hosting trivia.  I had to wait for the cookies to cool & then packaged them up.  He gets a nose bleed at about 1:30.  At 2am it's still bleeding, but he wasn't really trying anything spectacular.  We did get it to stop another 30 minutes later.  And finally went to bed at 3am. 

    Except I didn't fall asleep yet - and I started to get a headache.  So I got up, took to tylenol & here I am.  I will go back to bed shortly.

    Hope you all are doing well.

    Any tips for bloody noses?  We have a humidifier going - and he is finally convinced that having it running all day is  a good thing for our health.  lol  silly boys.

    Off to bed.  <3

  • Tongue Pain?!?

    My tongue hurts.  John thinks I started complaining about it as early as Thursday, but it seems like it hasn't been that long.  It doesn't appear to be swollen or to have any lacerations - could it truly be sore from coughing?  Wissh? Beth?  Anyone? 

    Off to bed